Beautiful? Ugly?

Everyone has a ugly n beautiful past. But we are moving on to the future, why dun we leave them at the back n be a better person. Dun stop to Love Care n Trust people like you did in the past. Cause this is the things where a HUMAN always do and never stop. Yes, people may have seen the ugly side of you but they will forgive and forget. giving you chance to change. Dun say its hard. Is this two word "Its hard" going to close every of your chance to be a better person? Do you wanna be a better guy for others? We know how tired it is to been through all that. But just need time, take step by step, dun jump into answers now. You wont know what will happen in the future. Since you have thought of being a better one, that's your motivation and more will be coming from people around you who love n care n trust you. They will give you chance to help you to stand up. Pulling you out from those dark place. Putting plaster on you to protect you from germs. Lastly, to friends, they dun need the word thanks from you but they just want to see smile on your face. So, make your day a bright n shine one. Smile^^

Gosh~ Not liking it man. Take care guys.

Fall sick now. Back home early to have my rest. Didn't see doctor, cause were too much people and quite lazy. So headed straight back home. During your ill period, who you want the most to be your at side looking after you? Your mum? Nah~ tough i love her but i want my bf to be there for mi. But looking from a different view, sometimes you will think a bit deeper. Your bf will be busy? Taking care of you, maybe will make him more busy. Rushing here and there. Take care of yourselve and maybe he will see how mature and independent you are. For sure you will feel better. Cheers

His coming!!!

ahhh! his coming! his coming singapore! what should i do? wanna take leave for the both day? wanna meet him? but he wanna meet mi? he free to meet? what im gonna say? what can i do? omg! why?! why are you coming! ahhh! help please! dunno why when receive his msg about he coming to singapore, my heart pump so fast, so so fast. omg omg. ahh! but he also say untill very busy like this, no time to meet like this. than why till wanna tell mi that you coming? aiyoyo. so nervous. erm??? but why i nervous oh? siao de mi, aiyoyo. im dying~!!! T_T

Mature.Grow up. Move on.

yun wai said the right thing. im still not mature yet. when he lonely and need mi, i cant always be there. when im lonely and need him beside mi, he cant be here too. our relationship will become like this is because distance. so why dun one of us be mature and let go. rather than being so xin ku and hurt so many time. after hearing what yun wai say, i so call woke up. than i think i will be the one to let go ba. since he always cant make a choice. than i make a move first. althought everytime imagine he with other guy will hurt mi so much. but i just can throw him out of my mind and heart. i wont bother him anymore. but maybe i wish after NS could have a chance to be together. cause no matter what happen, i still love you. but for now, heard he is sick. just hope he will take care of himself and recover. drink more water J. you will always be remembered by ethan. one day, ethan will be back for you. LOVE~

Sad, Miss You, Love You.

from sunday[28feb]morning till now, so much things happen. so much so much. now my heart is so hurt so pain. my mind is so messy, full of all stuff. found out jason betray mi again, but why? why Again? and the 3rd party was exson, i really cant imagine how they can be so lovely together. found out that yun wai and ryan knows about this long time ago had been hiding it from mi, dun wanna hurt mi? but im still being hurt now. all this really pulled my heart and body down. got weaker and weaker. had a long talk with jason on monday[1mar]midnight, but he seems tired. i have bring everything from my heart out to him. but at the end he just say im tired, need to sleep. T_T i really dun wanna drag this anymore. i wanna to go KL on 19night so i could meet him and also celebrate his birthday. but seem he doesnt want mi to go. am i really distrubing you and exson? i wanna settle things clear with you, how long you wanna hang there. just stick to one person and throw the other one away. if you really dun love mi, not interested in mi, find mi irritating. please tell mi so and i will leave your life forever. dun be afraid of hurting mi, it doesnt make any differents to mi anymore, cause im already been hurt. i dun wanna hear you saying you are far from mi, you hurt mi so much, you are not a good bf to mi. than are you a good bf to exson? so much things happen, but no matter what. i still love you. i wan you to be my bf, i know you are a good guy, you can change. i will keep on giving you chance, i wont give up on you. but i dunno why you could ren xin to do all this to mi. i dun wish you to be so fan everyday, so settle things with mi and i will leave the both of you alone. you will never see or hear ethan ng again. by the way, thanks for making ethan as my name, i love this. so please reply and dun drag. your birthday is coming, i want you to celebrate it happily with the one that you choose. thanks jason for the past, you really care and love mi and change mi to a better person. i love you so much.