Ahhh !!!

today the whole day i did not sms jason at all, not a single one. untill this afternoon when im at Bedok bus stop waiting for 35 to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal to meet my cousin. i got his message saying "i really dunno what i want and what i should do. im not a good guy". i really dunno what i can do now. i have already say i dun wanna break with him, wanna patch back and be couple again, his answer is just dunno dunno dunno. the other time he say wanna patch now say dunno, is he playing with my feeling. damn sad damn sad. cant he treat mi better and stop hurting mi. gosh~ than when i reach home, went to facebook and got to know that gavin change his status "in a relationship" WHAT?! yesterday he just said that, there is a guy who wants to date him than told mi a silly thing that happened. than now he have bf already?! i cant accept it. dunno why when i know he have bf i feel so sad, angry, jealous. than just now said nasty things to him. asking him to leave mi alone and dun contact mi anymore. but i dunno why i wanna do that to him. i felt so sad to do so. dun wanna lose him but he already belong to someone else. i really really cant accept it. suddenly felt so empty so lonely so sad. help anyone? T_T